Last Letter I’ll Ever Send

[Verse 1]
I still park outside your street
Engine off
just sit and breathe
Scrolling through your photographs
laughing at the ghost of me
You were in that thrifted coat
coffee stain on the left sleeve
I was busy being proud
when I should’ve been on my knees
You said
“Tell me what you’re feeling”
I hid it in a joke
You were begging for a partner
I was acting like a host
Kept my past like broken bottles
scattered all across the floor
Cut you every time you tried
to pull me closer than before
[Chorus]
This is the last letter I’ll ever send
Every sorry I owe
all in this pen
I’m not a perfect person
never was then
I loved you so wrong
I’m letting you win
So I’ll write
“I hope you sleep and never see my storms again”
Seal it with the truth
we’re better as “remember when”
This is the last letter I’ll ever send
Last time I call you
more than a friend (yeah)
[Verse 2]
You remember late-night drives?
We’d get lost
on purpose, too
Arguing about the future
while the fuel light flickered blue
You were mapping out a life
names for kids and summer plans
I was staring at the window
scared of being just one man
I blamed timing
blamed my parents
blamed the town we grew up in
Truth is
I was terrified
of anyone that trusted him
So I pushed you to the edge
just to see if you would stay
You held on until your fingers
finally slipped and walked away
[Chorus]
This is the last letter I’ll ever send
Every sorry I owe
all in this pen
I’m not a perfect person
never was then
I loved you so wrong
I’m letting you win
So I’ll write
“I hope you sleep and never see my storms again”
Seal it with the truth
we’re better as ‘remember when’
This is the last letter I’ll ever send
Last time I call you
more than a friend
[Bridge]
I hope he brings you flowers
on the days you hate your face
Holds your hand in crowded rooms
doesn’t vanish into space
I hope he hears your silence
like a siren in his chest
Loves the parts of you I broke
and treats your tired heart like rest (yeah)
If you ever read this
and you feel that old world shake
Know I’m not knocking on your door
This isn’t that kind of mistake
It’s the way that I say “thank you”
for the love I couldn’t keep
And the way that I say “sorry”
so you’re finally free to breathe
[Chorus]
This is the last letter I’ll ever send
Every sorry I owe
all in this pen
I’m not a perfect person
never was then
I loved you so wrong
I’m letting you win
So I’ll write
“I hope you sleep and never see my storms again”
Seal it with the truth
we’re better as ‘remember when’
This is the last letter I’ll ever send
I’ll always love you
that doesn’t mean we mend (oh)
[Outro]
I fold the page
I write your name
Then cross it out
let go of blame
This is the last letter I’ll ever send
Goodbye to you
goodbye to who I’ve been

rap, Moody pop-rap ballad with melancholic piano over trap drums, spacious pads, and subtle guitar swells; verses in intimate, confessional male vocals with rhythmic rap phrasing, hook opens into a melodic, bittersweet sing-rap chorus with layered harmonies and distant vocal chops, dynamics build from close and fragile to a cathartic final chorus that fades on echoing ad-libs, pop