[Verse 1]
You left your coat
Still on my chair
Coffee cup ring
Like a ghost in the air
Your hair on the pillow
Your name on the wall
I keep tripping on traces
Every room
Every hall
[Chorus]
How do I hate you
When I still taste July
When your laugh keeps cutting
Through the quiet of my nights
I rehearse every reason
Every wound
Every bruise
How do I hate you
When all I do is lose you
Again
[Verse 2]
I scroll through photos
Like I’m picking a fight
Zoom in on your smile
Try to call it a lie
I list all your exits
All the times you withdrew
But the more that I blame you
The more I miss you
[Chorus]
How do I hate you
When I still taste July
When your laugh keeps cutting
Through the quiet of my nights
I rehearse every reason
Every wound
Every bruise
How do I hate you
When all I do is lose you
Again
[Bridge]
I say
"She used me" (yeah)
To the bathroom mirror
But the second I do
Your face gets clearer
I try on anger
Like a thrift store suit
Hangs off my shoulders
It just doesn’t fit the truth
[Chorus]
How do I hate you
When I still taste July
When your laugh keeps cutting
Through the quiet of my nights
I rewrite our ending
Till the pages turn through
How do I hate you
When every broken part of me
Still reaches out for you