Alive

I had somehow found myself lost in an utterly unfamiliar world. That scene had transformed me—a perception I had never experienced before. Though it was the same world, I could no longer sense it. I tried to return to how things were before, but I couldn’t even go back to my old life. I pretended nothing had changed, tried to fit in with those around me, and turned a blind eye to reality.

I pretend to be myself and to accept the changes within me, as if I were living the same life as before. There is no sign of happiness anywhere. I live in denial. Even so, I am trying to accept myself as I am, and everything as it is. If I can free myself from this denial, I will be free. At last, I will be able to be myself, to live vibrantly, and to be free.