Torn Between the Halo and the Haze

[Verse 1]
I grew up on stained glass
Breathing in incense and fear
Folded hands
Bitten tongue
Every doubt drowned in a cheer
You said
"Trust
You'll be carried"
But the ground kept my blood
I was begging for a whisper
Got the echo of a shrug
[Chorus]
I'm losing faith
But I still reach up
Hands like open wounds
If you're there
Why do you stay away?
While I shake in this room
I am tired
I am wired
To a silence that won't move
I'm losing faith
But I still reach up
Still reaching
Not for you
[Verse 2]
Memorized every promise
Like a map out of my skin
Tried to cover up the scars
With a cross and a grin
You said
"Son
You are chosen"
While I choked on my own shame
Now I scream into the ceiling
Just to see if it remembers my name (hey!)
[Chorus]
I'm losing faith
But I still reach up
Hands like open wounds
If you're there
Why do you stay away?
While I shake in this room
I am cracked
I am collapsing
Under all that I outgrew
I'm losing faith
But I still reach up
Still reaching
Not for you
[Bridge]
I tore your picture from the wall
But kept the nail inside
I don't believe in heaven
But I still look at the sky
Am I praying or just talking
To the ghosts in my own head?
If you're mercy
If you're meaning
Why'd you choose to play dead?
[Breakdown]
Where were you
When the light went out?
(Where were you?)
When I begged
When I bled
When I cursed your crown?
(Answer me!)
Take my lungs
If I'm screaming to the void
Take this hope
If it's just another ploy
I am done
I am done
But I can't let go
I still reach
I still reach
For a hand I don't know
[Chorus]
I'm losing faith
But I still reach up
Hands like open wounds
If you're there
Why do you stay away?
While I shake in this room
I am torn
I am worn down
But I can't undo this glue
I'm losing faith
But I still reach up
Still reaching
Past you

Emotional post-hardcore with male vocals: tense, tremolo-picked guitars and sharp drum bursts in the verses, opening into wide, shouted gang-vocal choruses. Screamed lines cut through over a bed of distorted chords and melodic counterlines. Bridge drops to a fragile clean guitar and near-whispered vocal before exploding into layered screams and a final, cathartic riff-driven outro., emotional, post-hardcore