"Painkiller Love"
(Intro – Dark, eerie keys, deep 808s rumbling in, whispering like a prayer)
God, I need strength…
She fightin' demons, but they callin' her name…
I can't watch her drown, but I can't feed the flames…
I been here before, and it’s breakin’ my veins…
(Beat drops – Slow, hard-hitting, deep bass with a haunting choir in the background)
(Verse 1 – Aggressive but full of pain, fast but clear delivery)
Tears on my shirt, vomit all on the floor
She beggin' for one, but I can't give her more
Cold sweats, withdrawals, she screamin’ for help
But I seen this before, and it's tearin' myself
I hate that I'm watchin', I hate that I care
I hate that I love her, but leave her right there
She holdin’ her stomach, she shakin’, she pale
She tell me she dyin', I’m livin’ in hell
I seen my homies get lost in the powder
Watched my own blood get consumed by the hours
Now it’s my girl, and she fallin' down lower
Every pill that she take, got me clutchin’ a flower
(Hook – Chant-like, pain in the voice, hard but emotional)
God, please help me, I need to be strong
She fightin’ these demons, been sick for too long
I can't be the reason she keep doin’ wrong
But I hate seein' her hurt, I been broken too long
(Verse 2 – Harder, angrier, fighting inner demons, fast-paced)
I could walk away, but that’s heartless as f***
I could give her help, but that’s helpin’ too much
She be starin’ at me with them tears in her eyes
Sayin’ "Baby, just one, I ain't ready to die"
And I’m stuck in the middle, I hate that I feel
She been chasin' a high, I been chasin' what's real
I can’t be her savior, I can't be her fix
But if she overdose, I can’t live with that s***
I seen this before, yeah, I know how it ends
Either six feet deep, or behind a state pen
She swear she gon’ quit, then she hide ‘em again
And I’m watchin’ her break while I break from within
(Hook – Same as before, but stronger, almost desperate)
God, please help me, I need to be strong
She fightin’ these demons, been sick for too long
I can't be the reason she keep doin’ wrong
But I hate seein' her hurt, I been broken too long
(Bridge – Beat slows, eerie piano, deep breathing, almost whispered words)
I held my brother when he took his last breath
Watched my homies fade away, seen too much death
Now I see her goin’ down that same dark road
And I don’t know if I can watch it no more...
(Outro – Beat fades, rain sounds, distant sirens, a voicemail plays: "I love you, baby… I’m sorry…")
