Why i'm not like them?

I used to stare at mirrors, wishing I could fade

They said I was "too different", and I let the hurt invade

Whispers turned to thunder, every glance a blade

And I wore their words like armor, but it still broke me each day

Tried to love the girl they never really saw

But the mirror feels like judgment, not a friend at all

Wish I could disappear, like a shadow in the rain

Hide from all the voices calling me by pain

I’m scared of love, scared of being near

What if they look and only see my fear?

So I disappear… just disappear

Smiles feel like lies now, silence cuts me deep

Crowded rooms feel colder, I forget how to breathe

Every step feels heavy, like I’m walking through a scream

And I ask the sky each night if I can wake up from this dream

They said beauty's in the heart, but no one looked inside

And my soul keeps breaking where the shame still hides

Wish I could disappear, like a whisper in the night

Hide from every mirror, every hurtful light

I’m scared of love, scared to let one near

What if they touch me and just feel the tears?

So I disappear… I disappear

But somewhere deep within this fragile shell

There’s a voice still trying not to yell

Saying “You are more than what they see”

“You deserve to breathe, to just be free…”

I won’t disappear, though I break inside

One day I’ll believe I have the right to shine

I’m scared, yes… but I’m still here

And maybe that alone makes me sincere

No, I won’t disappear…

I’m still here…