Brain gone random

My mind is got a chokehold on my spirit. keeping the circle of life spinning but its like i can hear it. Overthinking holds me back again. like the walls of the cell have did.  Now im released . Out on the streets but since that seems that the pressure increased.  Everythings different when im  burning trees. Still i Move forward when my feet allow. and my brain slows down like im shutting down. can you hear me now?

This is more than life to me ,This is more than just response. Am i set to effect or am i the cause?  Why am i unable to clear my mind, after all this time. Why am i left to hide, or decide? To love it or hate it to live or to die.

Everyday the same thing memories  come and they go. Whats real or fake i dont know. The drugs kicked in but only fuel the pain once they fade away. No reason i can see for something else to stay. God tried calling but i still aint called him back. This confusion is illicit but stays under wraps. Until the maniac snaps with a quick react. Cycle starts over and im  back  to the begining still trapped. 

This is more than life to me ,This is more than just response. Am i set to effect or am i the cause?  Why am i unable to clear my mind, after all this time. Why am i left to hide, or decide? To love it or hate it to live or to die.

rap, hip hop, trap, boom bap., male