The deepest scars
It’s a quiet ache, the kind that sits heavy in your chest,
You replay all the good times as your soul tries to blur out the rest,
Your brain is trying to justify staying,
By your heart already knows and whispers we have to stop waiting,
You don’t want to let go- not because you don’t know your worth,
Because you saw so much potential in him and that is what truly hurts,
Potential in a man that you never really knew,
Fake potential because everything what was ever said- you were lied to,
The bruises that used to line my skin,
now only line my heart,
There isn’t a day that passes that I know I truly loved you from the start,
But now the fondest memories have faded into nothing and I cannot seem to recall,
All this massive love I had for you that you never reciprocated at all,
The deepest scars I keep inside where only I can see,
Those are the ones that truly bruise everything inside of me,
If you went back to the past and fixed all
the mistakes you made, you would erase yourself,
That really made things clear,
It made me want to live my life better and not stare into the rear view mirror,
When I was asked what was the thing I loved the most it was always you,
When anyone asked him, well I was number two,
I don’t want to beg to be loved anymore by a person that is incapable,
All I ever wanted was for you to act normal and stable,
The bruises that used to line my skin,
now only line my heart,
There isn’t a day that passes that I know I truly loved you from the start,
But now the fondest memories have faded into nothing and I cannot seem to recall,
All this massive love I had for you that you never reciprocated at all,
The deepest scars I keep inside where only I can see,
Those are the ones that truly bruise everything inside of me,
I never once lost my feelings for you,
But I realized that you didn’t love me back,
So I had to give us up,
And that hurt worse than any part of this has,
The love I once had was not a fluke or fake,
It was real happy love, that I tried to build with you but it turned out to be a mistake,
I gave my heart away to you,
Only for you to coldly reject it,
It took years for our love to grow,
And seconds to completely destroy it,
Your choices were yours and yours alone,
I cannot sit around waiting anymore for you to come home,
Someday someone will love me the way that I deserve,
Not make me feel guilty about being mildly successful to a person who never got the nerve…..
Arkh
