What If?

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[intro male crying to god]
[male crying]:(*CRYING*)
Nobody ever tollld me,  
That sometimes good things feel bad… *(yeah…)*  
That sometimes heaven is hell?*(Lord)*  
That love can hurt you likkke that…*(hurt you like that…)*  

(Mmmmmmmhmmhmhm)
[sad whistle]

[pre chorus male sad]
Well___
__I’m learnin’ it now *(I’m learnin’ it the hard way)*  
So___

[Chorus male raspy depressed]
What if I’m screwin’ this up? 
The hell am I doin’? It’s tough! 
’Cause lately -I’m the happiest  
-I’ve ever been..
 *(never been this high, baby)*  

What if it isn’t enough? 
*(what if it’s not?)*  
What if we fall out of love? 
 *(please God no)*  
What if I say somethin’ wrong?  
What if we’re not strong?  
What if I screw it up? *
(I can’t screw it up…)*  
  
(Yuuuuuuuuhhhaaah)
[acoustic guitar softly leads up to the verse]

[Verse 1 male confused]
Nobody ever told me  
I could be my own worst friend *(my own worst enemy)*  
And if I had my way  
I’d ruin it  
And say goodbye to you again *(I don’t wanna say goodbye…)*  

(byyyyyyyeeyeyeyey, yeah)

[pre chorus male scream]
But that’s not what I want! *(no, no, no)*  

[Chorus male pissed]

[Chorus male raspy depressed]
What if I’m screwin’ this up? 
The hell am I doin’? It’s tough! 
’Cause lately -I’m the happiest  
-I’ve ever been..

 *(never been this high, baby)*  
What if it isn’t enough? 
*(what if it’s not?)*  
What if we fall out of love? 
 *(please God no)*  
What if I say somethin’ wrong?  
What if we’re not strong?  
What if I screw it up? *
(I can’t screw it up…)*  

(Please, please dont let me)

[Bridge male questioning life]
Smilin’ while I’m breakin’ down *(ha… yeah)*  
Laughin’ while I drown *(somebody save me)*  
I don’t know how to hold this  
Without lettin’ you down *(I’m tryin’… I swear I’m tryin’)*  
[*SNIFF*]
Maybe I’m scared of the silence *(so quiet)*  
Maybe I’m scared of the truth *(tell me the truth)*  
Every time I close my eyelids  
I see a world without you *(and it kills me… it kills me)*  

[piano build up]
[acoustic guitar build up]

[Final Chorus male scared] (stacked, desperate)  
What if I screw this up? *(what if I do?)*  
The hell am I doin’? It’s tough *(I’m losin’ my mind)*  
’Cause lately  
I’m the happiest  
I’ve ever been *(never felt like this…)*  
What if it isn’t enough? *(tell me it’s enough)*  
What if we fall out of love? *(stay… just stay)*  
What if I say somethin’ wrong?  
What if we’re not strong?  
What if I screw it up?  

(Whhhhhhhhaatat, yeah)

[Outro barely whispered, cracking]
What if I screw it up? *(I’m so scared)*  
What if I screw it up? *(don’t let me…)*  
What if I screw it up? *(I love you… I love you…)*

[whistle turns to guitar]
[guitar solo turned in to ambient noise]

Raspy sad vocals, indie folk, Sad Whistles, emo acoustic, lo-fi, introspective singer-songwriter, confessional alt-pop