LIGHTS OFF, I AM STILL HERE
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1. STATIC BEFORE THE LIGHTS
Can you hear me—
I’m here.
(click)
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2. LIGHTS DIM
Lights dim, room feels wrong
Walls lean in, clock ticks long
Same place, unfamiliar
Like the dark got closer
Hold still, don’t breathe
If I don’t move, maybe it won’t see
Not off yet.
Not safe.
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3. WHO’S THERE?
Who moved when I blinked twice?
Who knows the sound of my mind?
Who’s there?
I’m here.
Say something—
Make it clear.
Answer me.
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4. BREATH ON THE WALLS
Walls inhale, ceiling sighs
Every crack feels like an eye
There’s breath on the walls
And it’s not mine
I hear you.
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5. I’M HERE (DON’T COME CLOSER)
Lights off, so dark
Heart too loud, no spark
Who’s there? I’m here.
I see you.
Don’t come closer.
I already did.
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6. COLDER
It just got colder where I stand
Like something passed through my hands
Fear doesn’t touch
So why do you?
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7. SAY MY NAME
Say my name, I’ll make it quiet
Say my name, you won’t be alone
Why does this feel like giving in?
Because you already did.
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8. OPEN DOOR SYNDROME
I don’t remember opening the door
But it’s not closed anymore
Thoughts feel borrowed
Time slips thin
I don’t know which thoughts are mine
But I know which ones lie
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9. THIS IS WHERE I LIVE
You built me every sleepless night
I learned your shape from fear and light
You’re just echoes over time
You needed me
I survived
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10. LOOK AT ME
Mirrors move before I do
My mouth speaks what I don’t choose
Look at me—who do you see?
If I’m here, why won’t you leave?
Because you’re looking at me.
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11. GET OUT
Get out of my head
Get out of my skin
GET OUT
GET OUT
GET OUT OF ME
You hear me now?
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12. I BUILT THIS CAGE
I built this cage brick by brick
Every night I didn’t sleep
I made you loud
I made you real
I built this cage
I hold the key
You’re not my god
You’re not me
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13. SILENCE DOESN’T ANSWER
It’s quiet now
That scares me more
Silence doesn’t answer
But it remembers
Say something.
Please.
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14. QUIET WITH TEETH
This calm has edges
This peace bites back
I don’t flinch anymore
That should feel like strength
Why doesn’t it?
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15. CONTROL IS A SHARP OBJECT
I grip it tight
Until it bleeds
Control cuts both ways
Ask my hands
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16. RAGE TAUGHT ME HOW TO STAND
Anger pulled me upright
When fear cut my knees
Rage taught me how to stand
Now teach me when to sit
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17. YOU SOUND LIKE ME
You say my words
With my mouth
I learned them to survive
And now they won’t leave
You sound like me
I hate that
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18. I AM NOT WHAT I SURVIVED
I’m more than the dark
More than the noise
I am not what I survived
I am what survived it
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19. LEAVE THE DOOR CLOSED
I don’t need answers
I don’t need ghosts
Some doors don’t lead forward
They just reopen wounds
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20. LIGHTS OFF (FINAL)
Lights off
Still dark
Who’s there?
I’m here.
(pause)
I am.
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