[Verse 1]
Haven’t slept in
Three damn days
Ceiling fan spinning
Like my brain
Phone in my hand
I just stare
Everyone texting
“Nah
I’m fine” back there
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m tired of “you’ll get through”
Tired of “it’s all in your head”
If this is “just a phase”
Why’s it feel like I’m already dead? (yeah)
[Chorus]
I’m pissed off at everything
Every word you say just stings
Don’t tell me it’s not that bad
You don’t know the war I’m in
I’m pissed off at everyone
Smiling like the damage’s done
You don’t see the way I break
You just see the mask I fake
[Verse 2]
Hands keep shaking
Keys on the floor
Heart keeps racing
Behind my door
Therapist voicemail
“Call me back”
I just hit delete
Then I fade to black
[Pre-Chorus]
You say “try breathing deep”
I’ve been drowning all week
If pain’s supposed to teach
What’s the lesson when I can’t speak?
[Chorus]
I’m pissed off at everything
Every word you say just stings
Don’t tell me it’s not that bad
You don’t know the war I’m in
I’m pissed off at everyone
Smiling like the damage’s done
You don’t see the way I break
You just see the mask I fake
[Bridge]
I don’t need your perfect phrases (hey!)
I need space for all these phases
Let me scream
Let me shake
Let it pour
Let it quake
I’m still here
Barely here
But I’m here
(I’m here)
[Chorus]
I’m pissed off at everything
Every word you say still stings
Don’t tell me it’s for the best
I’m the one inside this chest
I’m pissed off at everyone
But I’m begging just for one
One real look beyond my face
One real hand inside this blaze
[Outro]
Till then I’ll lie awake
Rage humming in my veins
If you don’t understand
Get out of my way