My disguise

So I’ll smile like I’m fine, like it don’t hurt
But my soul’s knee-deep in the dirt
Every “I’m okay” is just a lie
Another tear behind these eyes
You walked away, I lost my light
Now I’m alone with ghosts at night
And I keep falling just to rise
Wearing this pain as my disguise

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I talk to walls like they can talk back
Rewrite the past in shades of black
Regret’s a song that’s stuck on loop
I’m dancing drunk in an empty room
I miss your voice, I miss your light
But I kill the thoughts that come at night
These memories hit like dynamite
And I’m just trying to survive the fight

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So I’ll smile like I’m fine, like it don’t hurt
But my soul’s knee-deep in the dirt
Every “I’m okay” is just a lie
Another tear behind these eyes
You walked away, I lost my light
Now I’m alone with ghosts at night
And I keep falling just to rise
Wearing this pain as my disguise

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Maybe someday I’ll break free
From all these chains you left on me
But until then, I’ll play pretend
Call it strength, or just the end

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So I’ll smile like I’m fine, like it don’t hurt
But my soul’s knee-deep in the dirt
Every “I’m okay” is just a lie
Another tear behind these eyes
You walked away, I lost my light
Now I’m alone with ghosts at night
And I keep falling just to rise
Wearing this pain as my disguise

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