My disguise

So I’ll smile like I’m fine, like it don’t hurt

But my soul’s knee-deep in the dirt

Every “I’m okay” is just a lie

Another tear behind these eyes

You walked away, I lost my light

Now I’m alone with ghosts at night

And I keep falling just to rise

Wearing this pain as my disguise

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I talk to walls like they can talk back

Rewrite the past in shades of black

Regret’s a song that’s stuck on loop

I’m dancing drunk in an empty room

I miss your voice, I miss your light

But I kill the thoughts that come at night

These memories hit like dynamite

And I’m just trying to survive the fight

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So I’ll smile like I’m fine, like it don’t hurt

But my soul’s knee-deep in the dirt

Every “I’m okay” is just a lie

Another tear behind these eyes

You walked away, I lost my light

Now I’m alone with ghosts at night

And I keep falling just to rise

Wearing this pain as my disguise

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Maybe someday I’ll break free

From all these chains you left on me

But until then, I’ll play pretend

Call it strength, or just the end

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So I’ll smile like I’m fine, like it don’t hurt

But my soul’s knee-deep in the dirt

Every “I’m okay” is just a lie

Another tear behind these eyes

You walked away, I lost my light

Now I’m alone with ghosts at night

And I keep falling just to rise

Wearing this pain as my disguise