Hey, can we talk?
Sure. I see you’re in pain
Who me? Yes you
The one with demons all in his brain
Stop! hold on a second…
NO! You threw away blessings
Please stop. I know I’m not perfect but I’ve done the right thing, I still pray for love but don’t deserve it
See! You are lonely,
and that’s not right,
I agree, so why bother fight?
Because! You DESERVE
SOMEone NICE! Even Some support!
Yeah, sounds about right
Shut up ghost, that’s your problem
No. It’s my mental health. It’s stuck at rock bottom
I hear you don’t get it, rather go ghost than be my friend I bet that’s the real problem
Dude, can I ask you a question?
Sure. I might not be able to express it
What is your problem?
A lack of love & lots of stresses
I didn’t know you felt like that
Because men are afraid to express it
Why do you say that?
Look at all of my exes?
Why what did they do?
The last one cheated and got pregnant
Damn that sucks, can we move on to a different section
As long as you don’t bring up the fact I was molested
You’ve gone through so much I didn’t know, you never mentioned it
I do that shit on purpose because it feels so real and evident
Can I ask you who did it?
A family member, & a milk truck driver
that’s the end of it.
Self talk is hard, but it’s relevant
I know, I wanna die but I’m heaven sent
What do you mean?
No support, just a ghost, but gods on my side and that’s still relevant.
So that’s it?
No. It never ends.
What do you mean ghost?
Homie that’s irrelevant
Talk to me ghost
I don’t know what to say
What bothers you the most?
I’m alone every day, stuck inside my brain, ocd and triggers got me feeling insane
I accept you for who you are
I know you’re lying
I think you’re the one to blame
Self talk turns to self hate
Dark minds, lost souls, all things we can relate
Self hate.
I went from having angels and homies all around me like a saint
Now they’re dead or gone and no one talks, they ostracize me rather than try to relate.
Is that the end? Self hate ends here?
Yeah… That would be great.
