Fractured Halo

(soft synth, distant guitar swells)

I don’t recognize myself anymore.

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I’ve been staring at the same four walls

Trying to remember who I was

My reflection feels like someone else

With my eyes but a different hell

I tried to be holy, I tried to be strong

But the weight of it all just proved me wrong

I wore their sins like a second skin

Now I don’t know where I end or where they begin

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Every prayer feels counterfeit

Every promise I made—an empty threat

I wanted to save everyone but me

Now I’m drowning in the wreckage I couldn’t see

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My halo’s cracked, my wings are gone

I tried to be light in a world so wrong

I held the sky on my fragile spine

Now I’m buried in the fault of mine

My halo’s fractured, my soul is scarred

I chased salvation into the dark

I tried to be everything I’m not

Now I’m standing alone in the aftermath

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I keep apologizing to the past

Like maybe that will make it last

I replay the words, I replay the nights

Every wrong turn, every warning sign

I wanted to matter, I wanted to heal

But I bled myself dry to make it real

Now the silence is louder than screams

And I don’t know what I’m supposed to be

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I lost myself in the war to belong

Now I’m just the echo of what went wrong

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My halo’s cracked, my wings are gone

I tried to be light in a world so wrong

I held the sky on my fragile spine

Now I’m buried in the fault of mine

My halo’s fractured, my soul is scarred

I chased salvation into the dark

I tried to be everything I’m not

Now I’m standing alone in the aftermath

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Maybe I was never meant to carry the world

Maybe I was only meant to survive it

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My halo’s cracked, my wings are gone

I tried to be light in a world so wrong

I held the sky on my fragile spine

Now I’m buried in the fault of mine

My halo’s fractured, my soul is scarred

I chased salvation into the dark

I tried to be everything I’m not

Now I’m standing alone in the aftermath

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I don’t know who I am…

But I know I’m still here.