[Verse 1]
My mind plays tricks I can’t defend,
Dreams don’t help, they just pretend.
Every night they turn to flames,
Day by day it’s all the same.
I barely sleep, I barely breathe,
Your shadow’s tangled up in me.
One side says just let it die,
The other side still asks me why.
[Pre-Chorus]
I try to hate you, that’d be smart,
But hope still lives inside my heart.
[Chorus]
’Cause deep inside I dream in gold,
A house, a dog, someone to hold.
I wanna stop, I wanna move,
But every road still leads to you.
No love potions, no disguise,
I want the truth you showed me once at night.
Even if you’re my poison now,
I’d drink you slow… I don’t know how.
[Verse 2]
I wish your name was off my mind,
A forbidden word I’d leave behind.
But sometimes I still make a bet
You’ll show up where I least expect.
Naples, Rome, or anywhere,
Just you and me and summer air.
I tell myself I won’t believe,
But hope’s the hardest thing to leave.
[Pre-Chorus]
I know the cure is letting go,
But why’s it something I don’t know?
[Chorus]
’Cause deep inside I dream in gold,
A house, a dog, someone to hold.
I wanna stop, I wanna move,
But every road still leads to you.
No love potions, no disguise,
I want the fire from the early nights.
Even if you’re my poison now,
I’d drink you slow… I don’t know how.
[Bridge – louder, drums build]
Maybe I’m addicted to the start,
To the version of you in my heart.
Maybe I’m chasing what we were,
Not what we are — not anymore.
If loving you is wrong or right,
Why does it still feel so alive?
[Final Chorus – bigger]
Deep inside I dream in gold,
A house, a dog, someone to hold.
I wanna run, I wanna choose,
But I’m still standing here with you.
No magic spell, no antidote,
Just broken promises you wrote.
Even if you’re my poison now,
I’d drink you slow…
And let it burn me down.
Gigulina
