At night

I thought you were different
That’s what hurts the most
You looked me in my eyes
Said I was the one you chose
You asked me to stay
But your action pushed me away
I kept losing myself
So I walked away

I saw it but I stayed
I wished it wasn’t true
I kept on losing me
While holding onto you

I keep it hidden deep inside
I act like I’m alright
But I break down when I’m alone
When nobody’s in sight
You said that you would change
You said you’d treat me right
But words don’t fix the damage
That comes at night

I found out all the truth
She helped me see it clear
She said I deserved better
And wiped away my fear
I started understanding
The things I didn’t know
Because she stood beside me
And helped me start to grow

People tried to fix it
Said maybe give it time
But love should feel like peace
Not something that makes you cry

I keep it hidden deep inside
But she knows when I cry
I walked away that night
Now I finally understand why
It still hurts sometimes
But I know I chose right
I lost him in the day
But I found myself at night

Sad like Billie Eilish