Thoughts of Deep Meaning

Born in the world 
A different color 
As another 
Still a human brother 
Still had a mother 
Still had a daughter 
Father why the slaughter 
Why bother with these thoughts 
About race and gender 
All your hearts are tender 
With no TLC do you render 
Yourself away from the love 
Play the offender get offended 
While being the shot sender 
Or let's keep pretending 
The day we see the end 
I had a dream where I was venting 
Thoughts of wreaking havoc 
Bent the mic when I speak 
It seems the mind weak 
Still about Red or Blue 
Forget white but 
Its the color of the country 
Purity and Innocence 
Now isnt that ironic 
More plot holes 
In these schemes 
Than rings I get in sonic 
Must be working from the shadows
Cause were walking on some egg shells 
Every time they break 
I feel im waking from a segment 
Of my life I thought was vacant
Just some dude down in a basement 
My job found a replacement 
Of the dream that I was chasing 
Guess my heart cant be complacent 
Im only human and the other humans 
The reason im consuming Avoiding 
Doom feel safe in my room but 
I go outside hoping im safe 
From the thoughts in my mind 
Swear my past was fine
I talked to the pastor 
From 5 to 9 then go 
To my 9 to 5 repeat 
Why am I beat if i got 
This heat and this passion 
Im asking questions 
Know the answer madness 
Disguised really sadness in eyes 
If they see ill be glad to share
What im through got respect
For my badges not if they're dirty 
Im nerdy near thirty and skinny 
Description if they need to 
Picture an image not 
New to these plays I was
Part of a scrimmage
Was rapping at 5 
Kept it all to myself 
Ironic this app 
Got me back to myself 
I dont care for attention 
Just hope what I mention 
Could clear all the tension 
Im on my ascension
Any sense that It made 
Had to change as prevention 
Intent to get rid of my presence 
Was strange when im helping 
My friends and my fam
Every day cause the dams
In our way like a jam 
Stop the trafficking backing 
What media plays stacking 
Water thats muddy we 
Can build with some putty 
But we're all a little petty 
I was ready to drown 
But God wouldn't let me 
Had a message that set me on fire 
I used to admire some people
That switched up to evil 
For better attire got people 
That fend for their idols
America's tired of lies 
Tired of feeling unable 
The message I send 
a lot on our plate 
Worth the wait 
If we all share a table

Upbeat but Laid Back Beat,  Passionate Emotional Rap, Male