My own ruin

I know my deeds breathe treachery

Betrayal and consequence

Life can be such a tragedy

So often at my expense

I don’t want to sound like a bitch

But I’ve had about as much as I can take

I will end up dead in a ditch

Or at the bottom of a lake

Every time I turn around

There’s someone else that I’ve let down

So let me drown slowly

In the swirling black water

Don’t give me the space to renew in

Go ahead and abandon me

When I start to falter

To rot in my own ruin

The serpent has found a home in me

Hissing disorder and dissent

The venom flowing vile and free

To poison all with discontent

I don’t want to sound like a bitch

But I’ve had about as much as I can take

I will end up dead in a ditch

Or at the bottom of a lake

Every time I turn around

There’s someone else that I’ve let down

So let me drown slowly

In the swirling black water

Don’t give me space to renew in

Go ahead and abandon me

When I start to falter

To rot in my own ruin

In the decay of my own creation

The wreckage that is my way

From a dark life of predation

In my ruin is where I’ll lay

To rot in my own ruin

In my own ruin

The great rot and ruin