Verse 1 I’m sitting here mad as hell at myself tonight, Punching the wall knowing you were right. All them songs I write, all them messages I send, Talking ’bout love — then I hurt you again. Running my mouth, disrespect in my tone, Acting tough while breaking my own home. You gave me love and I gave you storms, Now I’m crying in the mess my anger formed. Pre-Chorus And God finally hit me with the truth I ran from, Showed me the blessing standing right in front. The man I kept praying for late at night, Was already here, holding me tight. Chorus So now I’m pissed off, cussing myself out, ’Cause I say I love you but don’t show it out loud. I treat you wrong then beg you to stay, And push the best thing in my life away. I swear to God my eyes are finally open now, Seeing what I’m about to lose and I don’t know how I kept hurting the one man sent to love me right, While I kept picking stupid fights every night. Verse 2 And with you locked up, it hurts even more, Trying to prove my love through a phone or a door. I wish I could hold you so you’d finally see, Just how much your love means to me. But calls cut short and visits ain’t enough, And loving you from distance is hard as hell and rough. I want to show you, not just say the words, But bars and phones make everything blurred. You think I got others, someone on the side, Truth is I’m lost in my own damn mind. I don’t even got me half the time, Just drowning in guilt for my own damn crimes. Life’s been falling apart piece by piece, And instead of loving you, I brought chaos and grief. Pre-Chorus And I know sorry don’t erase the pain, And maybe forgiveness ain’t something I gain. If you walk away, I earned that truth, But God knows I don’t want a life without you. Chorus So I’m mad at myself for the shit I do, For not loving you the way you love me too. Mad I put pride over peace and trust, And turned real love into anger and dust. God showed me clear what I couldn’t see, The man I begged for was right in front of me. And without you here everything feels wrong, Like I lost the place where my heart belongs. Bridge I don’t want another voice, another hand, Nobody else could ever understand My broken parts, my fears, my pain, The way you love me through my rain. You’re my safe place, my calm, my truth, And I hate myself for what I put you through. I just wish these walls between us would fall, So I could show you my love instead of just calls. Final Chorus So here I am, no pride left to defend, Just a woman scared she’s losing her best friend. God opened my eyes and I finally see You were the blessing meant for me. And if I lose you, that’s on my mistakes, On every promise I didn’t make. But I swear on everything deep in my soul tonight, I see your worth, and I’m ready to fight. Outro Mad at myself… but loving you clear… Praying it ain’t too late to keep you here. And until I can hold you when you walk back through, Just know every breath I take still loves you Drew Forever your wife Jenny

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