Medicine For A Mess Like Me

Feels like the end

Is creeping up

But I can’t even get up from my bed

Man, I hate myself

So I give all of my problems

To some future version of me instead

I’ll put you on the schedule

But I can’t make any promises

I swear I’m always busy

’Cause I got no time management

I’m sorry in advance

If I ruin all your plans

My bad… my bad…

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Yeah, I got ADHD

Everybody hates me

Yeah, yeah

Wish that I could change

But I’m all out of luck

Forgot what I was gonna say

Can’t remember what I’m running from

I just got out of bed —

Already feelin’ numb

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I need my medicine

’Cause my heart’s not fine

Baby, I’m the bad guy

In my own storyline

Need my medicine

Let me realign

’Cause the day’s too long

When you’re tangled in my mind

Yeah, I got ADHD

And if everybody hates me, well

I don’t give a fuck

But I’m sorry in advance

If I mess up all your plans

My bad… my bad…

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Still a hundred percent chance

That I miss your calls tonight

It’s not that I don’t care

I just get stuck inside my mind

If I’m late to the party

That’s just how my brain decides

I was caught up on my phone

For way too long

Losing track of every line

I’m in the back

And I’m dressin’ all black

Got a heavy heart

And a backpack full of past

Do it for the moments

When I can’t feel shit

Close my eyes, it’s suicide

But I’m still holdin’ on a bit

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Walls keep speaking

Nightmares creeping

Middle of the night

And my chest stops beating

Baby, don’t shed no tears

I’m still fighting through the fear

Need my medicine

Just to make it through the year

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I need my medicine

’Cause my heart’s not fine

Baby, I’m the villain

But I rewrite the lines

Need my medicine

Let me realign

’Cause the day’s too long

When we’re intertwined

Yeah, I got ADHD

Everybody hates me

Yeah, yeah

But I’m done tryna change —

I’m good enough

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Lost in my head

Closed eyes still calling for you

Lay in my bed

Wish I knew what I’m supposed to do

I don’t wanna die yet

But this road gets cold

I’m trying not to starve

In a world that won’t hold

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I need my medicine

And a minute to breathe

Baby, I’m a mess

But you’re tangled in me

Need my medicine

Just to feel aligned

’Cause the day’s too long

When you live inside my mind

Yeah, I got ADHD

So if I fade… don’t take it personally

I’m trying, I swear

Just a little unsteady

But I’m sorry in advance

If I mess up all your plans

My bad…

My bad…