This wasn’t a phase.
This wasn’t a lesson.
This was a war.
And I was inside it.
[Verse 1]
I didn’t hear about the fire — I burned.
Didn’t read the pages — I bled every word.
While they watched from the sidelines,
I was choking on smoke,
learning how to breathe with my chest caved in.
They slept through the sirens.
I stayed awake through generations.
Every scream that wasn’t allowed
found a home in my veins.
This wasn’t theory.
This was survival.
[Pre-Chorus]
They call it history.
I call it memory in muscle.
They call it over.
I call it still living under my skin.
[Chorus]
THIS WAS A WAR
AND I FELT IT ALL
EVERY LOSS
EVERY FALL
I DIDN’T VISIT THE DARK
I LIVED IN IT
RELIVED IT
BLED THROUGH IT
TILL I STOOD UP IN IT
THIS WAS A WAR
DON’T CALL IT PAIN
I CARRIED THE FIRE
SO IT COULD END WITH ME
[Verse 2]
I relived it in dreams,
in silence,
in rooms that felt safe but weren’t.
My body kept score
when my mouth couldn’t speak.
I carried the dead.
I carried the grief.
I carried the stories
nobody wanted to believe.
They ask why I’m intense.
Why I don’t forget.
You don’t forget a battlefield
when it trained your nervous system.
[Pre-Chorus]
They got distance.
I got scars.
They got time.
I got every moment stacked on my heart.
[Chorus]
THIS WAS A WAR
AND I FELT IT ALL
NOT FROM A DISTANCE
FROM THE FALL
I DIDN’T WATCH IT HAPPEN
I WAS THE GROUND
THE IMPACT
THE AFTERMATH
THE SOUND
THIS WAS A WAR
AND I’M STILL HERE
THAT’S NOT WEAKNESS
THAT’S WHAT SURVIVAL LOOKS LIKE
[Bridge]
I begged for rest
with my hands shaking.
I begged for peace
while still standing guard.
I didn’t choose this battlefield—
but I finished it.
Every trigger I survived
became a weapon I disarmed.
[Break – spoken / shouted]
You didn’t feel it in your bones.
You didn’t carry it in your blood.
So don’t tell me to move on
from something
I had to become strong enough to outlive.
[Final Chorus – full force]
THIS WAS A WAR
AND I REMEMBER EVERYTHING
EVERY NIGHT
EVERY NAME
EVERY THING
I WAS THE ONE
WHO HELD THE LINE
WHEN THERE WAS NO END IN SIGHT
THIS WAS A WAR
AND I WON’T BE QUIET
I SURVIVED IT
TO END IT
TO NAME IT
TO BREAK THE CYCLE OF VIOLENCE
FORGED TO END THE MADNESS
FORGED BY THE WAR I SURVIVED
[Outro]
I’m not broken.
I’m not dramatic.
I’m a veteran
of something you never had to fight.
And I’m still standing.
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