Verse 1
The smell of last night’s still in the room
Empty bottles, empty promises too
You say you need it just to feel alive
But I’m fading while you’re barely surviving
You laugh too loud when I pull away
Call it love when I freeze in place
I learned to silence what I feel
Just to keep your world from breaking
Pre-Chorus
You say, “Come here, I’ll just hold you tight”
But I’ve heard those words too many nights
My skin already knows the truth
Your promises don’t stop with you
Chorus
You said you’d only hold me
But your hands don’t know restraint
I go numb while you tell me
That I’m overreacting again
I betrayed myself daily
Just to keep you feeling strong
You call it closeness, I call it loss
‘Cause you never learned my boundaries at all
Verse 2
You play the victim when I say no
Twist the truth until I don’t know
If I’m cold or just finally awake
From the damage I keep trying to escape
The alcohol speaks louder than you
Makes you big, makes me small too
I lie beside you in the dark
Wondering when I lost my spark
Pre-Chorus
You say, “I don’t mean it that way”
Your fingers brushing through my hair
But the grip is never gentle long
And my heart goes quiet again
Chorus
You said you’d only hold me
But you don’t hear my no
I give you what is left of me
And somehow still feel alone
I learned how to disappear
Smile when it hurts inside
You call it love, I call it fear
‘Cause you never really see me, right?
Bridge
Maybe you believe your lies
Maybe you’re just running blind
But my tears are not confusion
And my body is not yours to use
I don’t owe you closeness
I don’t owe you touch or silence
And I’m finally breathing again
Since I stopped bending for your comfort
Final Chorus
You said you’d only hold me
Now I’m holding myself
I’m done carrying your damage
Putting you above my health
You can drink, escape, deny
Spin the story how you like
But love does not feel like this
And respect should never have a price
Outro
I’m not cold
I’m awake
And my no was always real
Evourin
