Ups and downs

Lately I’ve been fightin’ with my own reflection,

Tryna find myself in all this disconnection,

People say they care but never show affection,

I’m missin’ who I was before the imperfections.

I carry all this weight I never speak about,

Smilin’ on the surface while I’m breakin’ down,

Feels like every little win just gets erased somehow,

But I still keep goin’, even when I drown

These nights get cold,

And my heart grows old,

Still I try to hold

On to somethin’ I don’t know.

It’s the ups and downs,

Yeah, they’re tearing me apart right now,

I’m screamin’ but I can’t make a sound,

Tryna find my way out.

Through the ups and downs,

I keep fallin’ but I’m standin’ now,

Even when my world breaks to the ground,

I’m still holdin’ on somehow.

I’m tired of pretendin’ that I’m always fine,

People only love you when you’re on the rise,

But disappear the moment you start losin’ shine,

Guess that’s just the price for bein’ one of a kind.

I’ve been holdin’ tears in like it’s second nature,

Tryna heal my wounds without askin’ favors,

But every scar becomes another motivator,

To push a little harder now and chase it greater.

One day I’ll look back and see

Every broken piece shaped me,

Maybe pain was meant to be

Part of my story.

It’s the ups and downs,

Yeah, they’re tearing me apart right now,

I’m screamin’ but I can’t make a sound,

Tryna find my way out.

Through the ups and downs,

I keep fallin’ but I’m standin’ now,

Even when my world breaks to the ground,

I’m still holdin’ on somehow.