Reality

I walk through the city

Lost in the dim street light

As Im doing daily mental fight

The night's sky gloving over my face

And I'm struggling to stay awake.

Inside,I'm wondering why didn't I just die

When I tried multiple time.

But failed every time.

I'm tired and sleepy

Having enough of every shit.

Every struggle feels like a hit

Living with broken heart

Trying to find every peace and part

Trying to remake my past into a better future.Not wanting to deal with more struggle.

I repeat myself to don't give up.

But the ground beneath me is shaking

And I don't know how much more shit I'm taking.

Yeah,just get out of my head

Because I regret not being dead.

Everyone says everything will be fine

But I don't believe in that lie,

Time to wake up baby.

This is the reality.

I went go through Hell and Back

I always had to watch my back.

Because there is no goin back,

I always have to look forward

Until the life gives me my reward.Being rich ass man with a wealthy life

Many kids and a pretty wife.

Sounds all good and pretty

Till you end up only yapping

Wondering till the ending.