I’ll Never Understand

[Verse 1]
Daddy’s still callin me by your name 
We share the same face but not the same pain
Your coffee orders stuck in my right side brain
It’s like you’re still here, but you ain’t, what a shame

[Chorus]
You left with the sunrise, dust on the road
Always said you’d come back when the hard times slowed
Left your family for the high that you’ll never regret
Growin’ up without a mother with this hole in my chest
I was just a kid standin’ there in the drive
Watchin’ cop cars in and out my whole life
You drove back up for a funeral
You saw me for a day, said I was beautiful

[Verse 2]
When you crossed state lines, did your problems go away?
Do you think about us or is it just another day
Are you stuck in the bottle or did you finally sober up
Guess we’ll never know because you’re never showing up

[Chorus]
You left with the sunrise, dust on the road
Always said you’d come back when the hard times slowed
Left your family for the high that you’ll never regret
Growin’ up without a mother with this hole in my chest
I was just a kid standin’ there in the drive
Watchin’ cop cars in and out my whole life
You drove back up for a funeral
You saw me for a day, said I was beautiful

[Verse 3]
I moved out but daddy’s still there
Sleeping in the same town, same house, same chair
Your side of the closet’s still hangin’ on the door
Your laugh echoes loud in the cracks of the floor

[Chorus]
You left with the sunrise, dust on the road
Always said you’d come back when the hard times slowed
Left your family for the high that you’ll never regret
Growin’ up without a mother with this hole in my chest
I was just a kid standin’ there in the drive
Watchin’ cop cars in and out my whole life
You drove back up for a funeral
You saw me for a day, said I was beautiful

[Outro]
I tried my best to hate you but I found out that I can’t
Love don’t disappear just because somebody ran
If only you were here and maybe dealt a better hand
Guess you’re just a mother that I’ll never understand 

Country, gritty, upbeat tempo with acoustic guitar, heavy bass, and thematic elements of rap and trap. female