Mm…
Yeah…
I don’t wanna be too much
I made it out, but I still feel stuck
Everybody say love, I say “what if it’s too much?”
I learned how to give, never how to need
I don’t know if there’s room for all of me
I been holding my breath when you get close
Smiling like I’m fine, but I’m not
I don’t know how to be chosen
Without feeling like I’m a lot
I been strong for so long
I don’t know how to lay my armor down
Every time my heart feels safe
My mind starts running out
I want love, but I’m scared of it
Scared I’ll mess it up, scared I’ll ruin it
I been carrying pain I didn’t choose
I don’t wanna be heavy to you
I want love, but I’m afraid to stay
Afraid you’ll see me and walk away
If I open up and show my wounds
Would I be too much for you?
Too much…
Mm, am I too much?
I grew up being everybody’s peace
Learned to disappear so they could breathe
I don’t ask for help, I don’t complain
I just love in silence, swallow pain
When you say “lean on me” I freeze
I don’t know how to let someone see
That my heart still flinches at touch
Even when it’s gentle, even when it’s love
I don’t wanna scare you with my truth
Don’t wanna bring my storms to you
I been holding parts of me back
Just so you don’t run fast
I want love, but I’m scared of it
Scared I’ll need too much, scared I’ll feel too much
I been strong since I was a youth
I don’t wanna be heavy to you
What if love don’t feel like pressure?
What if I don’t gotta be lesser?
What if I’m allowed to rest
In somebody else’s chest?
God, teach me how to receive
Teach me love don’t always leave
Teach my heart it’s safe to stay
I don’t gotta earn my place
I don’t need saving
I just need patience
I don’t need fixing
I just need space to be me
I want love that don’t feel like war
Love that don’t keep score
If I let you see the truth
Promise I won’t be too much for you
I want love where I can stay
Love that don’t make me afraid
If I lay my burdens down
Would you still want me around?
Mm…
I don’t wanna be heavy
I just wanna be held
