I’m afraid of the man in the mirror

[Verse 1]
You slammed the door at seven
Small hands over your ears
White dust on the coffee table
Her blood on the chandelier
He said
"Be a man
Take it"
Your heart turned to a fist
Every bruise on your mother's back
You swore you'd never live like this
[Chorus]
I'm scared of the man in the mirror
He’s wearing my father's face
Got my baby’s name on my shoulder
But I can't scrub out the stain
I was holding smoke and a heartbeat
Lost them both the very same day
God
I'm begging you
Don't let me
Turn out that way
[Verse 2]
Tiny socks in the washer
Bottle still on the floor
Blue lights painted the hallway
They carried you out the door
I was chasing that numb surrender
While your chest forgot to rise
Now every time I close my eyes
I see your fingers
See those wires
[Chorus]
I'm scared of the man in the mirror
He’s wearing my father's face
Got my baby’s name on my shoulder
But I can't scrub out the stain
I was holding smoke and a heartbeat
Lost them both the very same day
God
I'm begging you
Don't let me
Turn out that way
[Bridge]
I pour the bottle down the drain (hey)
Delete the numbers from my phone
I stand shaking in the hallway
Outside my child's room alone
"You're safe
You're safe
" I whisper
Though my voice is barely there
I am not him
I am not him
But the fear hangs in the air
[Chorus]
I'm scared of the man in the mirror
He’s wearing my father's face
Got my baby’s name on my shoulder
But I can't scrub out the stain
I was holding smoke and a heartbeat
Lost them both the very same day
God
I'm begging you
Teach these trembling hands to stay
I will break this chain
Or it breaks
Me today

rock, male