Don’t go…

I don’t slam doors, I just let ‘em drift shut slow

Say I need space, but I hate being alone

Every time it’s good, I start lookin’ for a crack

Like if I don’t leave first, they won’t come back

I swear I don’t mean it when I go cold

It’s like someone else takes control

I push you away before you get too close

Call it protection but it hurts the most

Tell myself I’m saving you from me

But I’m the one you’re tryna leave

I build these walls like they’re bulletproof

But every brick just blocks out you

And I don’t know how to stop this pain

I just watch love walk away again

I light the match, then I blame the flame

Say it’s fate but I know my name

Every “good thing” turns to ghosts

I push ‘em away before they get too close

It don’t feel like me when I shut you out

Like a voice in my head getting way too loud

Says “they’ll hurt you first, so don’t stick around”

Now I’m standing here with nobody now

It’s not you…it’s me… I don’t always mean to push all of you away………

Hopefully there’ll come a day when someone will help me to battle my own demons and find a way to……………… Stay……