[Intro]
Room spinning slow
TV on mute
Voices in my head talk
Crowd in an empty room (yeah)
[Verse 1]
Staring at the label on the bottle till it blurs
Scrolling through my contacts
ain’t nobody in this world
Every name looks fake
like I typed it in a dream
Like I logged into a life
that was coded just for me
I’m laughing at the wall
it’s the only thing that’s real
Tile on the floor
cold under my heel
Checking if I’m breathing
hand on my chest
Heart still ticking
for what, I guess
[Chorus]
I’m an NPC in my own life (own life)
Background face in my own mind (my mind)
Everybody talk but it’s all white noise
Like a laugh track playing over dead boys
I’m an NPC in my own life (so tired)
Wake up, drink, disappear on sight
If there’s meaning I ain’t seen that sign
So pour up till I fall offline (offline)
[Verse 2]
Homies say “you good?”
I just hit them with a shrug
They don’t really want the truth
they just scared of what it does
If I say I see the cracks
in the table, in the sky
In the mirror where a stranger
got my eyes but not my life
Sip ’til the day feels distant and dim
Like I’m watching my body
through a screen I’m in
Hear my voice in the air like a dubbed bad clip
Mouth move one way
words don’t fit (nah)
Try to pray but the ceiling just stares
Silence in the air feels almost like a dare
If there’s someone up there
they been mild, unseen
Or maybe that’s the twist
there’s nothing in between
[Chorus]
I’m an NPC in my own life (own life)
Background face in my own mind (my mind)
Everybody talk but it’s all white noise
Like a laugh track playing over dead boys
I’m an NPC in my own life (so tired)
Wake up, drink, disappear on sight
If there’s meaning I ain’t seen that sign
So pour up till I fall offline (offline)
[Bridge]
If you’re real then say something (say something)
If you’re real then bleed
If you’re real then stay when
I’m down on my knees
But the room stay still
just the AC hum
And the Jack in my glass
and this small, sad sun
[Chorus]
I’m an NPC in my own life (own life)
Background face in my own mind (my mind)
Everybody talk but it’s all white noise
Like a laugh track playing over dead boys
I’m an NPC in my own life (so tired)
Wake up, drink, disappear on sight
If there’s meaning I ain’t seen that sign
So pour up till I fall offline (offline)