My First Time

I didn’t want to kill him but he had to fuckin die (had to fuckin die)

If you could hear the voices, you would do it too (you would do it too)

I’m running through the door as I sweat and I shake,

I think I just made a fuckin mistake.

Scared of what’s next do I fucking confess,

That I just laid my best friend down to rest.

But fuck all that they would never understand,

They’d just lock me up and label me a mad man.

A million fuckin thoughts are racing through my mind,

I know they’ll find the body it’s a matter of time.

I can’t settle down I’m mentally unsound,

I need to leave town before the body is found.

But wait a fucking second hold on, just one minute,

There’s no fuckin proof that I’m the one that did it.

Deny everything, man, this is such a relief,

I think I’ll go to bed now and get me some sleep

Ah fuck! (Oh fuck) that won’t work at all! (Fuck!)

I never should have wrote my name in blood on the wall.

(Fuuuuuuuck!!!)

I didn’t want to kill him but he had to fucking die, (fuckin die)

I couldn’t fight these urges please believe me I tried (I tried)

Now there’s blood on my hands what the fuck did I do?

If you could here these voices, you would do it too (these fuckin voices)

I didn’t want to kill him but he had to fucking die, (fuckin die)

I couldn’t fight these urges please believe me I tried (I tried)

Now there’s blood on my hands what the fuck did I do?

If you could here these voices, you would do it too (these fuckin voices)

He had some good dank so I stopped on by,

Puffing on a blunt getting real real high.

Just fuckin around playing video games,

Is when the sudden urge for murder came invading my brain.

The voices kept screaming! “Tonight. Is the night”

You gotta end this motha fuckers meaningless life.

I grabbed a water glass and I broke it in half,

To stab him in his throat, in his neck and his back.

He couldn’t even scream as he whispered for his wife,

He could see my switchblade reflecting in the light.

I’ve never stabbed that fuckin hard in my whole life,

There was little chunks of metal missing from the fuckin knife.

I kept stabbing and stabbing until he finally neared death,

And looked him dead in the eyes while he took his last breath.

I finally fuckin did it I just claimed my first life,

And now I’ll escape and run free in the moonlight.

I didn’t want to kill him but he had to fucking die, (fuckin die)

I couldn’t fight these urges please believe me I tried (I tried)

Now there’s blood on my hands what the fuck did I do?

If you could here these voices, you would do it too (these fuckin voices)