Leave Out All My Prayers

[Verse 1]
I used to talk to ceilings
Mumbling names in the dark
Lip-synced to empty spaces
Chasing comfort in the carpet marks
Sunday stains on my jacket
Coffee
Guilt
And a cracked old cross
I kept your letters in a notebook
Till every promise started peeling off
[Pre-Chorus]
If you’re there
Why do I feel like this?
If you care
Why does your halo miss?
[Chorus]
I leave out all my prayers
But I’m still calling
Still calling
Tearing at the air
While I’m falling
I’m falling
I don’t believe you’re there
But I’m still screaming your name
Like you could hold all my weight
And then you never
You never came
[Verse 2]
I carved your words in my bedroom
Till every verse turned into doubt
Held my breath through the sermons
Heard my own blood drowning them out
I threw a fist at the heavens
Hit nothing
Just my fragile skin
Every silence is an answer
I don’t like what it’s saying again
[Pre-Chorus]
If you’re love
Why is it breaking me?
If you’re above
Why are you watching me bleed?
[Chorus]
I leave out all my prayers
But I’m still calling
Still calling
Tearing at the air
While I’m falling
I’m falling
I don’t believe you’re there
But I’m still screaming your name
Like you could hold all my weight
And then you never
You never came
[Bridge]
[Drop to almost clean guitar
Distant screams]
Are you ghost
Or am I?
Did I choke
On a lie?
Am I just
Talking to sky?
(Answer me, answer me)
I’m so tired
Of this fight
Of your quiet
Every night
If you’re gone
Say goodbye
(Answer me, answer me)
[Chorus]
I leave out all my prayers
But I’m still calling
Still calling
Tearing at the air
While I’m falling
I’m falling
I don’t believe you’re there
But I’m still screaming your name
One last time
One last try
Till my throat breaks under your silence again

Emotional post-hardcore, mid-tempo build that explodes into screamed choruses. Palm-muted guitars under hushed, shaky male vocals in the verses; drums open into tom-heavy drive pre-chorus, then wide, octave guitars and gang shouts on the hook. Second half adds higher harmony screams and a chaotic, reverb-soaked bridge that drops to near-silence before a final, crushing chorus., emotional, post-hardcore