Day after day, I'm out here strugglin.
I got 2 kids all i want is the best for them.
I try my hardest but its never enough in the end.
I fight my demons on the outside and from within.
Cognitive dissonance is slippin in
Listen to me, ignore yourself, are you listenin
Your new Existence will soon begin
Listen to me, ignore yourself, are you listenin
I've had a hard life and and it only gets worse.
As I get older I question my worth.
Am I good enough for my son and daughter.
Or have i been leading these lambs to the slaughter.
Pockets so dry, i might need some water.
Anxiety stricken, mental health is just fodder.
Fodder for the shadows and the phantoms. the voices aren't real, but i still hear their anthems.
Cognitive dissonance is slippin in
Listen to me, ignore yourself, are you listenin
Your new Existence will soon begin
Listen to me, ignore yourself, are you listenin
Too self aware about being self aware, so many thoughts, so little time to care.
I care too much, I'm well aware.
Irrational fears i know I shouldn't fear, my brain can't understand, I can't make it clear.
Hyper vigilant I'm watching every move, I cannot sleep, I got no time to lose.
No time to lose cuz i got too much to do.
Too much stuff to do im feeling overwhelmed. I'm overwhelmed I expect too much of myself.
Cognitive dissonance is slippin in
Listen to me, ignore yourself, are you listenin
Your new Existence will soon begin
Listen to me, ignore yourself, are you listenin
I need help, i can't do this on my own. but nobody has the time to loan.
All they do is just bitch and moan.
I'm insignificant, let me bow before your throne. All these thoughts and ideas in my head.
the loudest one is wishing I was dead. Don't want to die so I fight to survive.
i fight to survive just to help you thrive.
If you weren't here I'd already be unalive.
Cognitive dissonance is slippin in
Listen to me, ignore yourself, are you listenin
Your new Existence will soon begin
Listen to me, ignore yourself, are you listenin
I do not exist for myself.
So i guess you could say that you're good for my health.
All i want for you is success, happiness and wealth. These are things that I cannot provide.
I am a failure and a loser, i have no pride. this is but a scratch on the surface of what i hide, deep inside,
Now is the part where I say goodbye.
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I'm sorry I failed you both.
but at least I tried
Cognitive dissonance is slippin in
Listen to me, ignore yourself, are you listenin
Your new Existence will soon begin
Listen to me, ignore yourself, are you listenin
