(Verse 1)
Mirror talkin’ reckless, sayin’ I’m a fraud again
Every little flaw feel louder than the God within
Walkin’ through my thoughts, it’s a war, it’s a riot
Tryna find peace but my head stay quiet—nah
Demons got a megaphone, angels whisper soft
Countin’ every loss, never countin’ what it cost
To hate myself daily, yeah I made it a routine
Smilin’ for the world while I’m dyin’ in between
(Pre-Chorus)
I be fightin’ me more than I fight the world
Every scar got a story I ain’t told
Tryna hold on, but I lose my grip
Self-love feel like a sinking ship
(Chorus)
I hate me, then I love me, then I hate me again
Tryna be my own savior but I’m stuck in my head
Every step forward feel like ten steps back
Self-love ain’t easy when your mind attack
I’m my own worst enemy, I know that’s true
But I’m still right here tryna make it through
(Verse 2)
Inner voice toxic, yeah it sound like me
Sayin’ I’ll never be the man I’m allowed to be
Carrying the weight of every word unsaid
Every “you’re not enough” still stuck in my head
But there’s a spark in the dark, I can’t let it die
Even when I’m low, still I question why
If I’m broken, who decides what that really means?
Maybe healing ain’t as far as it seems
(Pre-Chorus)
I be fightin’ me more than I fight the world
Tryna find light in a shadowed soul
Every day I wake, it’s a brand new test
Self-love ain’t loud, sometimes it’s just breath
(Chorus)
I hate me, then I love me, then I hate me again
Tryna be my own savior but I’m stuck in my head
Every step forward feel like ten steps back
Self-love ain’t easy when your mind attack
I’m my own worst enemy, I know that’s true
But I’m still right here tryna make it through
(Bridge)
Maybe love ain’t fireworks, maybe it’s scars
Maybe it’s stayin’ when it’s easier to fall apart
Maybe it’s whisperin’ “you’ll be okay”
Even when you don’t believe a word you say
(Outro)
Still breathin’, still bleedin’, still learnin’ to stay
Still fightin’ that voice that be pushin’ me away
If self-love a war, then I’m still in the fight
And losin’ some days don’t mean I ain’t alright
1999
