“Sober”

I’m stone-cold sober, veins full of nothing but spite  
Lights still strobe like they’re trying to fight  
Bassline kicking my ribs, crowd screaming my name  
But my blood’s gone quiet, traitor to the flame  

You’re all sloppy happy, spilling your souls on the floor  
I’m counting your pupils like a fucking score  
Teeth grinding glass, jaw locked on “I’m fine”  
While you chase the dragon and I’m stuck behind  

Pour another round, I’ll hold the cup for show  
Watch it sweat like the truth I’ll never know  
Everyone’s peaking, I’m already in the grave  
Sober at the afters, too awake to be saved  

I could’ve been gone, could’ve drowned in the glow  
Instead I’m the ghost in the middle of the show  
You laugh like hyenas, I laugh like a blade  
Party’s still raging — I just can’t get paid  

FUCK this clear head, fuck the morning I see  
Fuck every heartbeat that still belongs to me  
I want the blackout, I want the sweet release  
But the night won’t end and it won’t give me peace  

SOBER! SOBER! SOBER! — still here, still alive  
Watching the beautiful wreckage I can’t survive  
Raise your red cups, toast to the end of my fun  
The party ain’t over… but I fucking am done  

Sober rage, raw rage, rage rap, trap rage, rage phonk, pluggnb rage