[Verse 1]
My life has always been loud,
Though nobody hears a sound.
It lives beneath the traffic,
Under every crowded room,
In the eyes of strangers passing,
In the hearts I never knew.
I can feel a breaking family
In a smile across the street,
Hear the weight behind “I’m fine”
When the words sound bittersweet.
[Pre-Chorus]
And I carry what I’m given,
Every sorrow, every scar.
All these lives become a river,
And I don’t know where they are.
[Chorus]
So I go where the silence finds me,
Where the world can’t reach my skin,
Where a thousand aching voices
Finally fade beneath the wind.
I don’t want a colder heart,
I don’t want to feel less pain.
I just need a little stillness
Where I can hear my soul again.
’Cause I’ve died a thousand deaths
For a thousand lives unknown,
And I’m searching for a place
Where I can finally be my own.
[Verse 2]
There are nights I close my curtains,
Turn the lights down to a flame,
Still I feel somebody somewhere
Fighting hard to stay the same.
Someone mourning what they lost,
Someone begging not to break,
Someone holding back a lifetime
For their children’s birthday cake.
And I wish that I could tell them
They don’t have to hide the tears,
But their sorrow fills my lungs
And I can barely breathe it here.
[Pre-Chorus]
I was never built for armor,
I was never taught to run.
When the world becomes a wound,
I feel every single one.
[Chorus]
So I go where the silence finds me,
Where the world can’t reach my skin,
Where a thousand aching voices
Finally fade beneath the wind.
I don’t want a colder heart,
I don’t want to feel less pain.
I just need a little stillness
Where I can hear my soul again.
’Cause I’ve died a thousand deaths
For a thousand lives unknown,
And I’m searching for a place
Where I can finally be my own.
[Bridge]
Maybe peace is not a prison,
Maybe stillness isn’t wrong.
Maybe I can love the broken
Without carrying it home.
Maybe I can leave their sorrow
At the doorway of the night,
Let the moon hold what I’m feeling,
Let the darkness make it light.
For a moment, let me breathe here.
For a moment, let me stay.
I can care without becoming
Every wound along the way.
[Final Chorus]
So I’ll go where the silence finds me,
Let the quiet pull me in.
Let the world keep all its thunder,
I don’t have to answer it.
I won’t trade away my softness,
I won’t turn my heart to stone.
I just need a little distance
To remember I’m my own.
I’ve survived a thousand deaths
That were never mine to know,
And tonight I’ll choose the silence,
Not because I feel less,
But because I need to feel my own.