Silent Warriors Fight

I was just born a little boy. I was new to the world. Free of sin and wonder within. The demons of the world came down attacking me. I grew up abused, hurt and no one could see. As a teen I made choices that changed my broken life. That only ever lead to my pains and strife. Life was ruff and hard to live. Constantly wondering if this shot would ever end. My kids were welcomed with love and cheer. But, all around me was hate, disappointment for me to hear. My fears just grew as I age. Wishing and praying I could break my hellish cage. My mind and body turn on day by day. Trying to find out why I have all this negativity I have to pay. I sit and cry with the fears running rampant in my mind. Looking for peace and comfort, to leave everything behind. The world continues to hurt and beat me down. As no one can help me, due to me being bound. My mind is weak and my heart aches. My silent screams yell out for a break. No Gods or Angels come to help as I pray. With my mind and body turning on me, here I lay. With tears rolling like rivers of pain. I retreat into the last bit of safety of my untouched brain. Here I make a joyful place. Trying so damn hard to put a smile on my face. Feeling torn from here and there. Just to scream and tear out my hair. I feel as if I am going mad. Wounding why my life has been nothing but bad. I stand and defend my rights. As I demand my body to never give up the fight. Beaten and abused, blooded and in fear. My kids, my family and friends can I hear. I am the silent warrior that no one knows. For all my pain and scars do not show. Just a small light shines throughout the day. It shine lightly to guide my way. I do not know what is to come. But, I know that my fight still is not done. I beg to stay till my child grow old. And till my great grandchildren I can hold. I am the silent warrior that no one wishes to be. So I will keep fighting until death I see. Death keeps watching and waiting. As I keep wondering why everyone is hating. I love so much and give all I have to give. Just for my body and mind to leave my in so much pain as I live. Pain all around … Darkness abound…. Hearing chains and screams… Hell is all I can ever dream. My breathing shallow and slow. Now my time is done and it is time for me to go. Will my kids and family be alright? Will they stand and fight the good fight? All I can do wish them much love. Just send them much much love.