[Verse 1]
Wake up on a tightrope
Coffee shakes
Hands already tired
Mirror says
"you're too much"
Then it says
"you’re nothing at all"
Scroll through my own messages
Can’t believe the things I wrote
Heart in a car crash
Brain at the scene just taking notes
[Chorus]
I swing between the shadows
Saint to monster in a breath
I’m begging you to hold me
Then I’m wishing we had never met
My mind is a war room
Every thought a cigarette
I love you like a lifeline
Then I cut it just to feel the threat
[Verse 2]
You say that you’re running late
I hear
"you never cared at all"
One text turns to avalanche
I build a mountain from a syllable
Laughing at the party
Loud
Then I'm on the floor of the bathroom stall
Mascara on my wrist like ink
Writing reasons not to call
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register] Who am I this minute?
The angel or the wreck?
Do I push you off the planet
Just to drag you back by the neck?
[whispered vocals] I don’t trust my own reflection
It keeps changing when you breathe
Tell me will you stay beside me
When I'm the one you need to leave?
[Chorus]