[Verse 1]
Everybody love the image, not the wound
They cheer when I walk in, leave the room
Phone full of faces, none to call
I scroll through the names, hit a wall
Mama say pray, my faith got rust
I lie to her face, "yeah, I'm okay, trust"
Staring at the pill case, counting days
Thinking ’bout an exit like it’s just a phase
[Chorus]
If I disappear tonight
who gon’ notice that I’m gone? (who?)
Would they miss me or the story
they’ve been telling all along?
I been screaming in a crowd
but they treat me like the air
So I’m asking you, God, if you want me
show me that somebody care
[Verse 2]
Homies in the group chat, all jokes, no soul
They know all my stats, don’t know I’m in a hole
Tattoo on my chest say "never break"
Ink over cracks only cover what ache
I put on that mask like it’s part of my skin
Laugh in the backseat, die from within
Wonder if the reaper got my bed on reserve
Wonder if I’m weak or I’m more than I deserve
[Chorus]
If I disappear tonight
who gon’ notice that I’m gone? (tell me)
Would they miss me or the legend
they been faking all along?
I been drowning in a crowd
no one even see me there
So I’m asking you, God, if you want me
send one heart that really care
[Bridge]
Maybe I’m one step from the edge
one text from turning back
One hug from holding on
one word from staying intact (yeah)
If this my last breath, let it reach
somebody just like me
So they know they ain’t unwanted
they the reason I ain’t leave
[Chorus]
If I disappear tonight
would you feel it in your chest? (would you?)
Would you say you should’ve called
when you lay yourself to rest?
I been crying through a smile
till my face just feel like stone
So I’m begging you, God, if you want me
don’t let me die feeling alone