Yeah…
Pokemons in my head, lights flicker when I breathe
White walls, dark thoughts, still I’m chasin’ dreams
Chorus
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
I got pain, I got problems, who gon’ write these wrongs
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
Heart cold, mind racing, tryna stay strong
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
Demons knock, I lock ‘em out, but they too strong
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
Still I’m standing in the storm, singing sad songs
Verse 1
They say patient, but I’m tired of the wait
Paper gown, paper smile, try to act okay
Pills lined up like soldiers, marchin’ in my veins
Doc talkin’ ‘bout tomorrow, I’m stuck on yesterday
Voices whisper budgets, debts, and all my fears
PTSD playing reruns in my ears
Mama said pray, I do, but faith get thin
When the mirror look back like, “You sure you him?”
Pre-Chorus
Locked doors, but my mind still roam
Group therapy, but I feel alone
Heartbeat drum with the 808
If I make it out, imma elevate
Chorus
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
I got pain, I got problems, who gon’ write these wrongs
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
Heart cold, mind racing, tryna stay strong
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
Demons knock, I lock ‘em out, but they too strong
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
Still I’m standing in the storm, singing sad songs
Verse 2
Charts on the wall, they chart my decline
Mood swing like a pendulum, lost track of time
I’m a case file, number, barcode name
But I’m more than a label, more than the pain
Night shift nurse say, “You’ll be alright”
I nod, but my thoughts still fight all night
Turn trauma into cadence, scars into art
If this beat keep thumpin’, maybe I can restart
Bridge
If healing a marathon, I’m lacing my shoes
Every step hurt, but I got nothin’ to lose
From padded rooms to stages with lights
I’ma tell my truth till it sound like life
Chorus
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
I got pain, I got problems, who gon’ write these wrongs
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
Heart cold, mind racing, tryna stay strong
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
Demons knock, I lock ‘em out, but they too strong
Hold up, hold up, hold up.
Still I’m standing in the storm, singing sad songs
Outro
Yeah…
Still here, still breathing, still making a way
Mental patient, but I’m patient with the pain
Fade out… brain fog in my head, but I remain.
Hbros
