Hot When I’m Sober

[Verse 1]
Used to sleep in a green-gray cloud
Wake up, same couch, same screen, so loud
Every hit turned the volume down
Till my whole damn life felt background sound
Ash on my shirt, plans in the tray
Told my friends “I’m good,” then I’d drift away
One more night, then I’m doing it right
Same old script, same lie on repeat
[Pre-Chorus]
Then I cut that cord
Now the dark runs toward me
Close my eyes, it’s war
But at least it’s honest
[Chorus]
Nightmares coming in hot when I’m sober
I feel every flame on my shoulders
Used to fade it all out, now I face what I fought
Heart racing but I won’t stop
Nightmares coming in hot when I’m sober
But I’m riding that wave till it’s over
I was running from the crash, now I walk through the shock
Wide awake with the fear unlocked
[Verse 2]
Dreams like jump cuts, teeth all gone
Old house, locked doors, all the lights turned on
Ex’s voice in a hallway hum
Phone in my hand but my fingers numb
I see every lie I sold myself
Like a thrift shop shelf I never cleaned out
I’m shaking in sheets I forgot I owned
But I finally feel this room is my own
[Bridge]
[low vocal register] I breathe in / count four
Hold it / count four
Breathe out / count four
Let the shadows pour
[whispered vocals] Every monster got my face on it
Every panic got my name in it
But I stay, I stay, I stay
Till the terror turns thin as day
[Chorus]

rap, Hazy rap-pop over hypnotic ambient trance bed, male vocals. Dreamy pads and sidechained synths pulse under a tight, confessional rap in the verses. Big, chantable pop chorus with stacked harmonies and filtered vocal chops. Drops lean into reverb-drenched arps and subby bass swells, drums opening up in the hook then peeling back to a soft heartbeat kick in the bridge., pop, trance, ambient