I DIDN’T DIE

I DIDN’T DIE

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🎤 Intro (Spoken – low, trembling)

I’ve been called everything

Except “enough.”

I’ve been left

More times than I can count.

I’ve been the little girl nobody chose…

And the woman everybody leaned on.

But I’m still here.

(Heavy drums begin.)

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Verse 1

They made a child pick a home

Like love was something you divide

Mama or Grandma — choose one

While I was breaking inside.

I just wanted my mama to want me

Wanted to feel like I was first

But she kept choosing somebody else

And I kept swallowing hurt.

Daddy said I’d never be nothing

Said it like it was a fact

Every name he ever called me

Still echoes in the back.

I was seven years old learning

What rejection feels like

Before I ever learned multiplication

I learned how to survive.

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Pre-Chorus

Nobody saved me.

Nobody came.

So I became the hero

They never gave.

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Chorus (Big, emotional, gritty)

And I didn’t die.

Even when I wanted to, I didn’t die.

Through the pills, through the pain

Through the tears I couldn’t cry

I survived.

Through the abuse and the lies

Through the nights I said goodbye

When I thought I had no fight

I stayed alive.

You can leave me.

You can doubt me.

But you can’t say I didn’t try.

I didn’t die.

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Verse 2

Fourteen thinking that was forever

Sixteen holding life in my hands

The day after my birthday candles

I became somebody’s whole world and didn’t understand.

Still scared of the dark

Still scared of being alone

But I had a baby in my arms

So I learned how to be strong.

Abuse changed faces

But it always felt the same

From family to the father of my babies

Love always came with shame.

Five little hearts beating

Looking up at me

I didn’t have time to fall apart

They needed me to breathe.

Signed divorce papers shaking

But my backbone didn’t crack

If I had to be mama and daddy

Then I carried all of that.

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Pre-Chorus 2

How many times can a heart restart?

How many times can it bend?

How many times can you call it love

When it leaves again?

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Chorus (Bigger)

And I didn’t die.

When depression said “don’t try,”

When the mirror said “you’re not enough,”

I survived.

Through every man that walked away

Through every promise that didn’t stay

When I felt myself fade to gray

I stayed.

You can bury me in pain

You can drag me through the rain

But I built strength from every goodbye.

I didn’t die.

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Verse 3 (The Breaking Point – stripped, vulnerable)

There was a night I hit the bottom

So quiet it was loud

Swallowed every ounce of hurt

Didn’t wanna make a sound.

I was tired of being strong

Tired of holding up the sky

Tired of being everybody’s rock

When I was breaking inside.

So I took what I could find

Thought maybe this would end it all

Didn’t think about tomorrow

Didn’t think I’d wake at all.

But I did.

Hospital lights above me

Tears I couldn’t hide

And for the first time in my whole life

I chose not to die.

I chose help.

I chose breath.

I chose my babies over death.

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Bridge (Choir hums softly)

I survived my parents.

I survived their