Stop Counting On Me

(Verse 1)
Packed the bags, told myself it’s the last time
Threw the pills down the sink, drew a hard line
Three days clean, I can feel my heart beat
Looking in the mirror, standing on my own two feet
But the air feels thin and the walls are closing in
And a whisper says "where have you been?"
It’s a roadblock, a detour, a sudden U-turn
Just a little taste, I thought I could learn...
To stop.

(Chorus)
And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs
Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs
It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream
Trying to swim in a freezing stream
Round and round, the cycle brings me low
Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.
(Help me)

(Verse 2)
Can’t count the fingers on my own hand
Texts from you that I don’t understand
Said I’d meet you there, and I’d be okay
But I’m too wasted to even pretend I’m late
I’m fighting with demons, and fucking losing 
I’m fucking using, using, using…
Just please stop counting on me
(Please stop counting on me)

(Chorus)
And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs
Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs
It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream
Trying to swim in a freezing stream
Round and round, the cycle brings me low
Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.

(Bridge)
They say "one day at a time," I’m taking one hour
But the urge is a titan, and I have no power
I close my eyes, and I’m back at the start
Everything inside of me is falling apart
I want to breathe, help me, I want to fight 
But I fall deeper, every fucking night.

(Guitar Solo - Distorted and frantic, then fading to silence)

(Chorus - Softly, acoustic)
And I’m falling again, down the same old stairs
Trading my soul for a moment that never repairs
It’s a broken promise, a shattered dream
Trying to swim in a freezing stream
Round and round, the cycle brings me low
Trying hard, but I don't know how to let go.

(Outro)
But I don't know how to let go.
(Just one more time...)
One more time...
Ohhhh one more time!!
I can’t hide!!!
Has ahold of my mind!!!
Don’t count on me

Melodic rap, Acoustic guitar, addiction, hopelessness, emotionally riveting, intense struggle, male