GOD OF WAR
[Verse 1]
I carried you through a battlefield
Nobody else could see
Every mile was heavy
Every night took something out of me
I learned to sleep beside the fear
To breathe beneath the weight
I counted every little movement
Like a prayer I couldn’t say
I won’t lie and call it beautiful
Some beautiful things hurt
Sometimes miracles come covered
In the dust and blood of earth
And I was tired—
God, I was tired.
But you kept moving
underneath my heart.
[Pre-Chorus]
I thought I was carrying you
Maybe somewhere
in all that darkness—
you were carrying me too.
[CHORUS]
My little God of War
You came when mine was raging
Heaven put you in my arms
While everything was breaking
I had nothing left to fight with
Nothing left that I could give
Then I felt your heart against me
And remembered how to live
I don’t know why God chose that moment
I don’t know what He saw
Maybe He knew I’d need a reason
To survive another war
So when heaven couldn’t stop the battle—
It sent me
a God of War.
[Verse 2]
The day you came should’ve been different
That’s a truth I’ll always hold
There should’ve been nothing but happiness
Nothing cruel, nothing cold
Instead joy and devastation
Walked together through that room
And I learned a heart can shatter
While it’s making space for you
I remember looking down
Thinking, How can both be true?
How can this be one of my worst days
When I’m still here holding you?
And maybe that’s the cruel beauty
I’ve spent all this time trying to name—
The world was taking everything…
but I still had you.
[CHORUS]
My little God of War
You came when mine was raging
Heaven put you in my arms
While everything was breaking
I had nothing left to fight with
Nothing left that I could give
Then I felt your heart against me
And remembered how to live
I don’t know why God chose that moment
I don’t know what He saw
Maybe He knew I’d need a reason
To survive another war
So when heaven couldn’t stop the battle—
It sent me
a God of War.
[Bridge — piano only]
I used to ask God—
“Why then?”
Why give me something so precious
when I was already on my knees?
Why make me carry heaven
through hell?
Why let the happiest thing
and the hardest thing
happen so close together
I couldn’t tell which one
I was crying for?
[silence]
I think I know now.
Maybe God wasn’t punishing me.
Maybe He looked ahead
at everything I couldn’t see…
and knew
I was going to need you.
[music slowly builds]
Not to save me.
Not to fix me.
Just to be there
when everything else wasn’t.
A heartbeat.
A reason.
A little bear asleep against me
while the whole damn world went to war.
[FINAL CHORUS]
MY LITTLE GOD OF WAR
You were born into the battle
But none of it belongs to you
None of it gets your name
You were something made from heaven
In a season made from pain
And I’d carry every aching mile
To hold you here again
Let them tell me I was broken
Let them tell me what I lost
I KNOW WHAT I WAS GIVEN
AND I KNOW WHAT IT COST
’Cause when everything aroun