Intro (ad-libs / spoken)
(Ayo André let ’em hear ya)
(Gigi & Zona on the track)
(503 Sivar Music — yurrrr)
(Yeah…)
3 AM… snow on the Timbs
City quiet, head loud
Uh… winter insomnia
Chorus
This year it don’t feel like Christmas
City cold, heart numb, can’t miss this
Snow knee-deep, I’m still in the trenches
Lights on green, but my soul still drifting
3 AM, block got no witnesses
I been up all night, winter insomnia
Tree got lights but the vibe feel different
Yeah, this year it don’t feel like Christmas
Verse 1
Walking solo, hoodie zipped, no smile
Snowflakes stick to the ground like my thoughts right now
Phone dry, no text, no sound
Whole city sleep but I’m pacing around
Sirens echo, beat drop slow
Breath in the cold, see the pain when I blow
Used to laugh, used to feel that glow
Now it’s memories frozen under streetlight glow
Everybody got plans, got cheer
I got flashbacks, ghosts, and fear
Used to pray for peace this time of year
Now I’m just tryna make it through December here
Chorus
This year it don’t feel like Christmas
City cold, heart numb, can’t miss this
Snow knee-deep, I’m still in the trenches
Lights on green, but my soul still drifting
3 AM, block got no witnesses
I been up all night, winter insomnia
Tree got lights but the vibe feel different
Yeah, this year it don’t feel like Christmas
Verse 2
Subway screech, metal cry in the night
Same sound as my head when I’m losing the fight
They say “be strong,” yeah I’m tired of that
I been strong so long, where the comfort at?
I see couples laughing, holding hands
I just tighten my coat, keep walking ahead
Every carol feel like salt in the wound
Every “Merry Christmas” cut too rude
I ain’t mad, just numb inside
Heart on ice like the east side nights
Used to dream big under snowfall skies
Now I just survive till the sun come rise
Bridge (melodic / half-time)
Maybe next year feel warmer
Maybe next year I heal
Right now I’m pacing these corners
Tryna remember how joy feel
Final Chorus
This year it don’t feel like Christmas
No gifts fix what I’m missing
Snow fall heavy, chest feel different
3 AM, winter insomnia
This year it don’t feel like Christmas
But I’m still here, still breathing
City cold but I keep moving
Yeah… winter insomnia
Outro (ad-libs)
(Gigi, Zona & André on the track)
(503 Sivar Music — yurrrr heard)