Sitting here, December twenty-third
Ash on my tongue, smoke in my lungs
Stoking the fire just to feel something burn
I replay the way you said my name
Like it didn’t come with consequences
Like it wasn’t already too late
Drowning in the echo of those blue eyes
Cold as truth when it finally hits
Grieving a future we never touched
I mistook your hunger for faith
That’s what I get for believing
In the trap they call love
But that’s how it goes
The longer the emotions run
The deeper the scars they leave behind
You blue eyed devil
Scrolling through the ghosts on my phone
Your life framed clean in perfect light
Her smile looks easy next to yours
Like nothing ever crossed the line
I wonder if she knows the weight
Of the nights you learned my skin by heart
Those arms she leans on
Once pulled me close
Like you meant it
Like I was chosen
In your truck behind the sushi place in Madison
Windows fogged, lies breathing
You said forever like it was harmless
But that’s how it goes
The longer the emotions run
The deeper the scars they leave behind
You blue eyed devil
I learned how to disappear
While standing right beside you
I learned how to be quiet
So you could stay loud
You kept me small, kept me secret
Kept your hands clean
And I called it love
Just to survive it
What a fool I was
Thinking my love had finally found a home
In those blue eyes
I built a bed out of promises
And slept in the cold truth
That I was never meant to stay
Yeah that’s how it goes
The longer the emotions run
The deeper the scars they leave behind
You blue eyed devil
You don’t raise your voice
You don’t leave a mark
You just let me love you
Then walk back to your life
I keep the damage
You keep your name
You blue eyed devil
Blue eyed devil
You didn’t break my heart — you taught me how easy it is to disappear.
BluexBird93
