Blue eyed devil blue

Sitting here, December twenty-third

Ash on my tongue, smoke in my lungs

Stoking the fire just to feel something burn

I replay the way you said my name

Like it didn’t come with consequences

Like it wasn’t already too late

Drowning in the echo of those blue eyes

Cold as truth when it finally hits

Grieving a future we never touched

I mistook your hunger for faith

That’s what I get for believing

In the trap they call love

But that’s how it goes

The longer the emotions run

The deeper the scars they leave behind

You blue eyed devil

Scrolling through the ghosts on my phone

Your life framed clean in perfect light

Her smile looks easy next to yours

Like nothing ever crossed the line

I wonder if she knows the weight

Of the nights you learned my skin by heart

Those arms she leans on

Once pulled me close

Like you meant it

Like I was chosen

In your truck behind the sushi place in Madison

Windows fogged, lies breathing

You said forever like it was harmless

But that’s how it goes

The longer the emotions run

The deeper the scars they leave behind

You blue eyed devil

I learned how to disappear

While standing right beside you

I learned how to be quiet

So you could stay loud

You kept me small, kept me secret

Kept your hands clean

And I called it love

Just to survive it

What a fool I was

Thinking my love had finally found a home

In those blue eyes

I built a bed out of promises

And slept in the cold truth

That I was never meant to stay

Yeah that’s how it goes

The longer the emotions run

The deeper the scars they leave behind

You blue eyed devil

You don’t raise your voice

You don’t leave a mark

You just let me love you

Then walk back to your life

I keep the damage

You keep your name

You blue eyed devil

Blue eyed devil

You didn’t break my heart — you taught me how easy it is to disappear.