Supposed to be my father

[Verse 1]
You swore you'd catch me
Swore you'd keep me from the dark
Held my hand at crosswalks
Said you'd die before you'd see me scarred
But your voice got quieter
And your eyes got cold
Promises curdled
Like a story told
[Chorus]
You were supposed to be my protector
You were supposed to be my blood
You were supposed to be my father
But you dragged me through the mud
You were supposed to guard my heartbeat
Hold it gentle
Hold it tight
You were supposed to be my shelter
But instead you tried to take my life
[Verse 2]
I learned every exit
Mapped the creak in every stair
Counted breaths in the hallway
Prayed the floor stayed bare
You said I was nothing
Till I almost believed
Every bruise had a reason
Every tear you never seemed to see
[Chorus]
You were supposed to be my protector
You were supposed to be my guide
You were supposed to be my father
But you chose your rage
Your pride
You were supposed to guard my heartbeat
Keep the monsters from my sight
You were supposed to be my shelter
But instead you tried to take my life
[Bridge]
I am not your silence (no)
I am not your shame
I walk out of your shadow now
You don't get my name
[Chorus]
You were supposed to be my protector
But I learned to stand alone
You were supposed to be my father
Now I build my own home
I'll guard every fragile heartbeat
Mine is burning
Burning bright
You were supposed to be my shelter
But you don't get to take my life

Female, rap