“Turn Before You See Me”

Lately I’ve been dreaming in rewind again

Your voice echoes like it never ends

Back when forever didn’t feel like rent

Didn’t feel borrowed, didn’t feel spent

We were golden in a quiet way

Didn’t question if you’d ever stay

Every second felt like truth I could keep

Now it’s the only place I get to meet you—in my sleep

And I know it’s just shadows playing tricks on my mind

But it don’t feel fake when I see you alive

I’m reaching out, but I turn before you see me

Close enough to touch what used to be me

Roller wheels humming like a broken prayer

You’re right there—but I don’t go there

If you saw my face, would you look away?

Would you see the man who made you break?

I get so close, then I disappear

‘Cause loving you still lives right here

You’re laughing in a half-lit room

Strangers standing where I used to bloom

Your back turned like a quiet goodbye

And I’m frozen in a moving lie

Hand stretched out like I still belong

Like I didn’t do you wrong

But right before you turn around

I shift my path, I fade to sound

There’s a part of me scared of what you’d see

And a louder part knows you’re gone ‘cause of me

I’m reaching out, but I turn before you see me

Close enough to touch what used to be me

Roller wheels humming like a broken prayer

You’re right there—but I don’t go there

If you saw my face, would you look away?

Would you see the man who made you break?

I get so close, then I disappear

‘Cause loving you still lives right here

Maybe I’m the reason you don’t haunt my days

Only visit me where I can’t stay

Where I almost fix what I destroyed

But wake up empty, wake up void

I had your heart in careless hands

Now I’m just a ghost in borrowed plans

And every dream lets me almost try

But I’m the one who says goodbye

I’m reaching out… but I turn before you see me

Even now I don’t know who I’d be

If I let you look me in the eyes

Would you see love… or just goodbyes?

So I get close, then I disappear

Still holding you… just not here