Indifferent

Did you feel like a man

With my throat in your hand

Did you feel like a tough guy

When you punched me in the eye

Did it make you feel better about yourself

to call me names and make my life hell

You were a lesson learned the hardest way

I'm still trying to differentiate between what's real and what was fake

I gave you the very best of me

You gave me PTSD

I tended to your every need

You withheld affection from me

I gave you compliments

you drained my confidence

You forced me to my knees at your feet every day

you spun me in your web of lies and mind games

wrapped me in shame

I gave you a place to stay

not once did you say thanks

you spit in my face

you gave me your rage

I gave you the very best of me

You gave me PTSD

I tended to your every need

You withheld affection from me

I gave you compliments

you drained my confidence

You violated my privacy

And all of my boundaries

You punished me with violence

Your method of treatment was silence

You were a waste of time

Biggest mistake of my life

I gave you the very best of me

You gave me PTSD

I tended to your every need

You withheld affection from me

I gave you compliments

you drained my confidence

I don't love you anymore

I don't hate you anymore

I am indifferent

You are forgiven

I have let you go