Different

(Intro)

Yeah…

A lotta scars made me who I am

A lotta losses too

They say I changed…

Nah, I just seen too much

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(Hook)

I been movin’ different, I can’t trust the same

Everybody love you ‘til the money came

Had to cut some people off, that hurt my brain

Crazy how your day ones start to move like lames

I been movin’ different, heart colder now

Used to laugh with ‘em, barely know ‘em now

Told bro stay focused, keep his pole around

‘Cause the streets turn saints into souls in clouds

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(Verse 1)

I done seen mamas cry at them candle lights

Yellow tape outside, we was outside nights

Now I ride through the city with my head low

Too much pain in my heart, I can’t let show

Same dudes I was feedin’ started envyin’

Smile in your face whole time be wishin’ bad again

That’s why I stay to myself, I don’t politic

If loyalty was money, they’d be counterfeit

I remember cold nights, no heat in crib

Now designer on my body but the scars still live

Everybody scream gang ‘til them courts hit

Then them statements start flyin’, dudes turn counterfeit

And I still hear granny sayin’, “Boy, pray more”

But it’s hard when your brother name on a gray stone

Lost too many people to this fast life

Now I clutch memories tighter than this flashlight

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(Hook)

I been movin’ different, I can’t trust the same

Everybody love you ‘til the money came

Had to cut some people off, that hurt my brain

Crazy how your day ones start to move like lames

I been movin’ different, heart colder now

Used to laugh with ‘em, barely know ‘em now

Told bro stay focused, keep his pole around

‘Cause the streets turn saints into souls in clouds

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(Verse 2)

I got trauma in my bloodstream, scars in me

Still look over both shoulders when cars creep

Even when I’m eatin’, I can’t think peace

‘Cause survival turned a young boy beast

Teachers said I’d fail, now they repost me

Funny how success make fake love approach me

Girls that used to curve now obsessed with me

But where was y’all when depression was stressin’ me?

I ain’t perfect, I done hurt folks too

Said some things outta anger I regret too

But pain make a man move militant

Once your heart break enough, you get different

And that’s facts, you can hear it in my tone

I don’t even call nobody on my phone

Used to want love, now I move alone

‘Cause the closest ones usually do you wrong

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(Verse 3)

I miss the old me, I can’t even lie

Back before the funerals and homicide

Back when all the bros was really side by side

Before jealousy and pride switched the vibe

Nowadays everybody got an angle

Handshake fake, conversations tangled

You can see the hate hidden in a smile

That’s why I been distant for a while

Mama say I changed, I don’t laugh the same

Truth is every loss put me through flames

Seen death close, it’ll wake you up

Make you keep your guard when you showin’ love

Still thank God ‘cause I made it out

A lot them boys never made it out

So I carry every name with me

Every grave, every chain with me