(Intro)
Yeah…
A lotta scars made me who I am
A lotta losses too
They say I changed…
Nah, I just seen too much
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(Hook)
I been movin’ different, I can’t trust the same
Everybody love you ‘til the money came
Had to cut some people off, that hurt my brain
Crazy how your day ones start to move like lames
I been movin’ different, heart colder now
Used to laugh with ‘em, barely know ‘em now
Told bro stay focused, keep his pole around
‘Cause the streets turn saints into souls in clouds
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(Verse 1)
I done seen mamas cry at them candle lights
Yellow tape outside, we was outside nights
Now I ride through the city with my head low
Too much pain in my heart, I can’t let show
Same dudes I was feedin’ started envyin’
Smile in your face whole time be wishin’ bad again
That’s why I stay to myself, I don’t politic
If loyalty was money, they’d be counterfeit
I remember cold nights, no heat in crib
Now designer on my body but the scars still live
Everybody scream gang ‘til them courts hit
Then them statements start flyin’, dudes turn counterfeit
And I still hear granny sayin’, “Boy, pray more”
But it’s hard when your brother name on a gray stone
Lost too many people to this fast life
Now I clutch memories tighter than this flashlight
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(Hook)
I been movin’ different, I can’t trust the same
Everybody love you ‘til the money came
Had to cut some people off, that hurt my brain
Crazy how your day ones start to move like lames
I been movin’ different, heart colder now
Used to laugh with ‘em, barely know ‘em now
Told bro stay focused, keep his pole around
‘Cause the streets turn saints into souls in clouds
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(Verse 2)
I got trauma in my bloodstream, scars in me
Still look over both shoulders when cars creep
Even when I’m eatin’, I can’t think peace
‘Cause survival turned a young boy beast
Teachers said I’d fail, now they repost me
Funny how success make fake love approach me
Girls that used to curve now obsessed with me
But where was y’all when depression was stressin’ me?
I ain’t perfect, I done hurt folks too
Said some things outta anger I regret too
But pain make a man move militant
Once your heart break enough, you get different
And that’s facts, you can hear it in my tone
I don’t even call nobody on my phone
Used to want love, now I move alone
‘Cause the closest ones usually do you wrong
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(Verse 3)
I miss the old me, I can’t even lie
Back before the funerals and homicide
Back when all the bros was really side by side
Before jealousy and pride switched the vibe
Nowadays everybody got an angle
Handshake fake, conversations tangled
You can see the hate hidden in a smile
That’s why I been distant for a while
Mama say I changed, I don’t laugh the same
Truth is every loss put me through flames
Seen death close, it’ll wake you up
Make you keep your guard when you showin’ love
Still thank God ‘cause I made it out
A lot them boys never made it out
So I carry every name with me
Every grave, every chain with me