If I Die First

Let me know what your poison is
I’ll make yours after I make mine
Sipping it slowly letting it consume me
When I die just know there was no saving me anyway

If I die first it will be by my own hand
If I die first I’ll cut off all my loose ends and leave nothing behind
I’ll know that I lived a good life when my mind is clear and there’s nothing left to say


I’ve been dealing with these demons all my life
I’m letting the darkness win this time
I don’t want to fight this war anymore
It’s all said and done and I’ll be my own judge in the afterlife 

If I die first it will be by my own hand
If I die first I’ll cut off all my loose ends and leave nothing behind
I’ll know that I lived a good life when my mind is clear and there’s nothing left to say

Just know that I gave it my all (I really did)
The Angel of death has become my best friend
I fall into a deep sleep as she calls my name
She cuts my heart so deep but I don’t care anymore because I’ve become numb (I’ve become so numb)

Post grunge hard rock pop rock, male